★ Red Frailties OR Miss Erratic? ★

January 26, 2009

I’m not really sure if I still want to continue blogging here in this domain. I feel like I’m wasting the space that PAMCY
gave to me. I guess I must start sticking to blogspot for now, until it comes to the time wherein I know that I can take really good care of a domain. Because right now, I feel like I’m treating this great space like shit. I know, it’s because of the recent events that occured in my life right now. The break up. That left a huge dent on my life and because of that I am not really functioning that well. Well, I know that I’m pretty dysfunctional already in the first place but I’m more messed up now. I know that this will pass, I know that someday I will move on but right now, it really sucks. I miss him almost everyday, but then again, a huge part of me would scream at me and tell me that this is what’s best for us. No questions asked about the break-up please. I am not in the mood to explain everything about it. It’s really really complicated. Very complicated. Complicated is very overrated nowadays just like stars, but I tell you, it’s way way way complicated. Even I can’t answer some of the people that would question me about stuff.

I’ve drifted off from my original topic which was — to move to blogspot permanently and quit handling subdomains and domains for now. Why? Having a subdomain or a domain would need a more responsible mika. And I can’t be that responsible and focused right now with domain or subdomain stuff. I want to have a blogspot account, a permanent one, because from time to time, I’d like to express myself. And I guess that would ought to do it. Less responsiblity, but I’d still have the privilege to blog and express myself.

So I’m shifting and moving again. I am such a nomad. I haven’t stayed in one space for an entire year. I’ve been moving since the day I got myself engrossed with blogging. Been moving, from one space to another. Xanga. Blogspot. Subdomain. Domain. Blogspot. Subdomain. Domain. Subdomain. And now, another blogspot again. This time, I’ll try my best to make it permanent. I’ll still link you guys there. My links here, those who have not abandoned me yet. Lmao. I’m gonna miss my smilies but oh well. I guess this is better. I’ll try to upload some of my entries from here to my new blogspot.

New link —>

I’m still pondering a bit on whether I should take, redfrailties or miss-erratic. What do you guys think?
And if you ask me if I’m leaving superweirdo? I’m gonna think about it. But I’m gonna update blogspot more.

★ First and Last. ★

December 30, 2008

This is my first post after my blog break.
This is my first post using my upgraded wordpress.
This is also my last post for this year.

A lot has happened this year. Both good and bad.
I can’t really enumerate everything, just some maybe.
And probably just in a bullet form. As you can notice, I’m still a bit lazy when it comes to blogging. :D And it is not stated in a chronological order or something, I’m just gonna enumerate it randomly.

1. My puppy died.¹ I cried and cried that two days that he suffered. And till the day that he died. *sad face*
2. The boyfriend and I got together [April 12, 2008]. Cooled off for a month, then got back together [September 20, 2008]. But we both decided that we’re just gonna celebrate our monthsary on the 12th. And this coming April, it’s gonna be our first anniversary.
3. All of my closest college friends graduated already and now they’re all working.
4. I’m finally graduating. I passed NCM 104, which means I’m a graduating fourth year student.
5. I got Mr. Crapbag².
6. Got PORSCHE. My other puppy. And I really love her to death. She’s very playful.
7. Lost something very important this year. Very close to my heart, but I’m kind of glad about it. I think only twinie knows what this thingy is about.
8. Got hooked with SECOND LIFE. And I’m loving my life there too.
9. Activated my facebook account again. I’ve created it years ago, but it’s only now, I got the will to activate it.
10. Got hooked with GOSSIP GIRL.
11. Hated the fact that TWILIGHT became overrated this year. But still is in love with her husband EDWARD CULLEN.
12. Fell in love with another dude named EDWARD. Edward “Ed” Gregory Westwick
13. Became fat. Became thin. And I think I’m getting fat again, blame it all on the holidays.
14. My first depression cause by blogging. I felt the need to get away from the blogging world. Up until now, I’m still not into it yet. I just want to post my last entry. I wish I could be like GEL.
15. My first out of town trip with my friends! To ORMOC. I’ll try to post some photos soon. If I don’t get too lazy and if the internet connection cooperates.

Those are just some of the things that happened to me for the year 2008. I wonder what’s in store for me for the upcoming year 2009. I wish it would be better and after that year I’m gonna be a better me with a very bright future ahead of me.

I’m glad that after the year 2008 me and my friends are still close as ever. My College barkada, as well as my High school barkada. My inuman buddies as well. I’m glad also that I’m close as hell to my sister, and I guess as well as to my parents, as I’m growing older, getting all mature, I’ve grown closer to them. That’s something that I can be very happy about. *smile*

I’ve encountered a lot of obstacles for this year, but I’m proud and happy to say that I’ve survived and I’m still here, standing, living and breathing.

I hope that for the upcoming year, I’ll grow closer to the Lord. I know, I’ve been far away from HIM, I even get all lazy every Sunday, and I’ve missed a lot of Sunday masses all because of other unimportant things. I hope that for the year 2009, I’ll get to have this health relationship with the LORD.

For our band, I hope that we’ll still stick together and have more gigs and more jamming sessions! I miss you guys.

As for my friends, thank you for being there for me. And also to my online buddies! Sorry if I’ve been pretty absent lately, and I’ve been present only in plurk. *sad face*

For my barkada and close friends!!! Zar. Twinkle. Irish. Theri. Kaye. Anne. Jec. Cham. Tribo Kugmo. Thank you guys for being there for me. For banging my head on the concrete every time I do something stupid and for being the greatest set of friends! I’m always here for you guys.

The bestest best friend. Tayin. Sorry for being so hard headed most of the time, we’ve been through a lot! I’m still kind of in a state of shock ’cause you’re still here, even if most of the time, I’m pretty hard to deal with. Love yah best friend. Stay funny and everything. Keep rocking. Oooooh. Our band. Hahaha.

For THE BOYFRIEND. Sherwin. Sorry for all of the heartaches that I’ve caused you. I love you. I really do, and thank you for staying strong for us, and for extending your patience every time the bad girl in me ruins everything. I hope that we’ll have a lot more months to come. I love you very much. 8 months and counting *yay!* Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I hope that all of the paranoia will vanish this coming year, you know that I LOVE YOU. Only YOU. *smile*

I feel like I’m writing a letter of goodbye or something.
Oh well. That’s it for me. My last entry for the year 2008.
Cliche as this may sound :

Goodbye 2008.
Hello 2009.

1. Shark — A mixed breed, half daschund and half something else [↩]
2. My laptop [↩]

★ On a break. ★

December 21, 2008

Since I’ve publicly announced the death of my passion for blogging @ PLURK¹ , I am officially posting a hiatus entry on this domain of mine that’s dear to my heart. I think I just need to stay away from the blogging world for a while, not completely though because I still do drop by your blogs and read your entries. I just don’t have the luxury to comment on all of your entries. And I apologize for that.

I’ve decided to leave toffeenut, thanks again PAM for hosting me for that short period of time. I’ve backed up my entries there, and I’m gonna upload it here soon. And then maybe, if my wordkill gets really fixed again, revamped and all, I’m gonna post it there as well.

So, I’m officially gonna jump off the blogging bandwagon for now. I’m gonna try to be back after Christmas. I’m kind of busy with my offline life and second life anyway.

Good luck you guys.

1. where I hang out most of the time nowadays, if you can’t find me @SECONDLIFE, I’m probably bumming around at plurk [↩]

★ Oh review me. ★

December 7, 2008

I’ve been living and breathing in this world for 20 years already and ever since ever, I’ve always encountered a lot of advertisements and reviews about random things, about all kinds of different things, may it be a book, a movie, a website, food or even houses. And now that the world wide web has almost dominated — it’s easy now to find someone who can review for your site, but of course, we always have to segregate all these reviewers and makes sure that they are indeed reliable and that the money you are paying is worth it.

I’ve encountered Personal Online, Online Review and Trend and Shopping Today as I was browsing through the www, and guess what? They’re all great review websites. Perfect for gadgets, shopping, personal spaces, credit cards and all kinds of stuff that you need advertisement for.

I suggest that you visit these websites and I’ll tell you, you won’t get disappointed.

★ A burden for me. ★

December 4, 2008

I feel like blogging has become a responsibility for me already. I feel like I’m competing with everyone else from making sensible posts, to earning money from their blog sites. It’s true, I envy most of you bloggers out there who has all the time in the world to take good care of their websites and to manage it well. Well me on the other hand, I feel like I can’t manage everything all at once. Plus the fact that I have some other online engagements, like online games and stuff. It’s not just blogging for me.

I know, I’ve promised a couple of times already that I will return all of the comments but lately, I’ve been feeling out of place in the bloggging world. No, don’t get me wrong, I can still relate to all of you guys, it’s just that, I feel like there’s a distance between me and the blogging world. Well yea, you can say that I’ve grown distant from my first ever addiction which WAS blogging.

This fact is really depressing for me, because seriously, I missed all of your blogs guys but most of the time, lazyness would just simply reign over me. That’s why I couldn’t blog hop. Or even update my website. I feel like it’s an obligation already, but blog hopping is supposed to be fun right? That feeling just sucked the fun out of it though.

Probably because I’m feeling so stressed with school and whenever I face my laptop, I just want to relax and not think of any other responsibilities. Or, maybe it’s also because of our internet connection here at home that keeps on getting disconnected.

Or maybe it’s my insecurity, that’s why I feel like blogging has become a contest. The most comments. The most hits. The most money earned. You get the picture. I get insecure easily.

I want to apologize to all of my linkies and affiliates. I’m really sorry if I’ve been a very irresponsible blogger lately. *sobfeset*

I seriously want to make it up to all of you guys now but, I don’t have the will and desire to do any blogging duty as of now. I’m just updating now because I want you guys to know how I really feel right now.

And to think, my wordkill has just been renewed by my lovely host GG.

Now I don’t know what to do with my three websites, plus this issue that I have with myself. What am I supposed to do? I am really feeling depressed right now. I feel helpless. I don’t wanna leave my two sites because I promised PAM and PAMCY that I’m gonna take good care of these websites, and look at what I’m doing now. Surely, I can’t give away wordkill. Why? That’s my baby. *sad* That’s my first ever .org domain. *sad face*

Sometimes, I do wish that I have just ONE WEBSITE, so that it wouldn’t be three times the burden or something.

Random :
1. Feeling a bit depressed lately?
2. How many sites do you have?
3. No problems with managing your website?

Seriously, I am really apologizing to all of you guys. I really hope that you will all forgive me. And I hope that my desire for the blogging world will come back. I’M SORRY. *sad face*